I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
no wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
the choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
you'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when I still felt alive
we couldn't wait to get outside
the world was wide, too late to try
the tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
to pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
another six months I'll be unknown
give all my things to all my friends
you'll never step foot in my room again
you'll close it off, board it up
remember the time that I spilled the cup
of apple juice in the hall
please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when I still felt alive
we couldn't wait to get outside
the world was wide, too late to try
the tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
to pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
tomorrow holds such better days
days when I can still feel alive
when I can't wait to get outside
the world is wide, the time goes by
the tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
to pass the time in my room alone









It.s funny how a movie can touch so close to home on an area I havent thought of for a logn time, only to find out the very next day that someone has also gone through this particular trauma.



For those who went you know, Bridge to Terabithia is a great movie. As it is also a great book. Im sure my last two statements are flawed as it was book before movie, but Im positive there are greater tragedies in the world.



In the book and movie, the main character befriend a strange little girl, and to get away from their hardships they created a place only they could enter, called Terabitia. Toward the middle of the story, he goes off with his teacher to a mueseum and doesnt bother inviting his friend. When he arrives home he finds out that due to his inactivity to invite her along, she went to terabithia alone. The rope that they used to cross the river into Terabithia had broke and she fell to her death. Though im sure you all figured I never had an imaginary land, or was I as close as the two characters in the book were. I did have a friend who committed suicide due to my inactivity. What made it worse was that thinking back on it now, as subtle as they were, all the signs were there and I had the power to stop this event.

That movie brought many tears to my eyes. and concidering they felt it necisary to make the last 30 minuets of the movie convey the emotion of sorrow, keeping it together in the theater became a true task.



Poor Kelley had a friend die also. perhaps not under the same pretences. but that does not make it any less painful, and I understand her loss. I hope she does better than I did.



anyway, I didnt want to go to deep on this subject, not to much looking to pour my heart out, just needed to touch base so that some people knew why I teared so much during the movie.

Take Care everyone.









Shiro